[Bernard is the blessed to be the husband of Alicia and is thankful to be the father of Kresten, Ashley and Logan. He is privileged to serve in the Father’s kingdom in Lazaro Cardenas, Mexico.]
Stuart (not his real name), at one time, a frequent visitor, hadn’t dropped by in 2011. Then today, just before noon, he called from the sidewalk, interrupting my reading of Joel 2:32, “And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”
Stuart had skipped work due to sleep deprivation. He was troubled. He opened up about his dark depression. The previous night he had tortured his heart by playing his well known video – The 42 Years of Stuart. The story highlights are: broken marriage, the absentee father, failure of the most recent relationship and chemical abuse. In an emotional state of despondency and isolation Stuart contemplated the urge to end his dark, meaningless life through strangulation, cutting or consumption. Thankfully, his lack of resolve achieved only violent vomiting.
Stuart chatted about the glory days of his marriage when joy reigned and the relationship was rich. Back then there was always money at the end of the month. He declared that things were good when, as a couple, he and his wife were part of a fellowship of believers that worshipped God.
Our Creator and Master is holy, pure and perfect. He is Light. Our Father’s love and grace bring forth the complete opposite of what Stuart is living. The Light declares, “I accept you unconditionally, I love you sacrificially, I understand you intimately and I want to share relationship continuously.” Jesus, God incarnate and the sacrificial Saviour, proves that this is true.
Stuart’s reality proves the second part of the truth. Turbulence, turmoil and a dismal existence are not of God. These are elements of the darkness of which God has no part. The darkness has so convoluted Stuart’s mind that he has no sense of his identity (Who am I?), purpose (Why am I here?), destiny (Where am I headed?) nor worth.
Hopefully, we (and Stuart) will avail ourselves to the Light. Jesus is emphatic, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (John 8:12). Life is not meant to be a tragic existence of hurting others and of being hurt. Rather, life in the light is full and abundant. (John 10:10) And to provide this reality for you and me, our God was born to give us liberty by His death.
In closing, may this truth invigorate your journey. “But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from every sin.” Every child of God, walking in the light, is constantly cleansed by Jesus’ blood. We are blessed with uninterrupted fellowship with our God.